I’ve been hurt and I’ve hurt too many times Sarah. The sad truth is I know exactly how you feel. I’m worried that you expect me to hurt you and consequently fabricated that I might hurt you because of that text. I wish; dream; fantasise that some day we’ll conquer our stresses and realise that our own enemy is ourselves. You’re my best friend, soul mate and lover. I hope you some day realise how important you are to me. I haven’t yet demonstrated it, not have I proven that you’re a significant aspect of my life… You might think I have but I haven’t, because a true man would prove that you’re the most important thing to him in so many ways, and all I’ve done is disappoint you. Some day soon I will make you realise it. I’ll make a significant emphasis on he fact that you’re the most important person in my life. Being alone last year… Doesn’t bear thinking about. I’m incredibly lucky. Someday you’ll understand. I’m sorry for everything. I love you. Xxx
I have lost my best friend and boyfriend in less than 24 hours. I’m going crazy all alone. But I want to be alone to cry with my self hate. I never appreciated his beautiful soul quite enough. I was never good enough! Nothing is ever enough for the fucked up self hating slut I am and clearly always destined to be…. I’m straight 100% I know this much now and that is it. That’s all
Tumblr it’s over goodbye
I could possibly break tonight. Self hate eats at my every effort to resist the urge
What would you do if I showed up with tulips at your door?